Entry #5 [Echoes]

Entry #5. I find myself almost bored with CYS-0112358-FR [Concrete], thus I am taking a day off from surveying the area. Instead, I have decided to do a comprehensive review of my memories. This way, I can compare how much that I have remembered (if I do obtain new memories). This will also help Cyno [Streamer] if by any chance I cannot reach her. It will serve as a failsafe.

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In the interest of time, I will be uploading the memories via N0V4. It would be highly inefficient for me to attempt to describe my memories word by word. It would also be moderately inaccurate, as human minds are fallible, and imagination can warp fact. I apologise if my memories are upsetting or disjointed. I cannot piece them together.

Most of the time, nothing shows up. Observe.

 

A video is embedded. It crackles and pops with static electricity. The screen is fuzzy. There is a bunch of noise, some voices, but nothing is discernible. The screen goes dark.

 

As you can see, nothing shows up. This is when I attempt to access a random memory. It feels like flipping through a book that I have never read, but the pages are all blank, and I am attempting to find a chapter that has no description. I feel the book. I feel the pages. But nothing shows up. However, when I try to access the exact moment when I “died”, this comes up instead.

 

Another video is embedded. It crackles and pops with static electricity, like the first one. However, unlike the other, the screen slowly fades in and out of focus. There is fire everywhere. The camera moves and shakes from the perspective of a person. There are screams in the distance. Everything is blurry and hard to make out. Suddenly, the door bursts open. An entity walks towards the camera, but it is too out of focus, and the camera starts shaking violently, as if crawling backwards. Or perhaps it is shaking with fear. Suddenly, something grabs the camera. The screen shudders, ripples of static making the video cut in and out. The screen bursts into flames, then for a split second, you can see a pair of eyes. They are indescribable. There is no colour, shape, or description that could match it. It is more a feeling. A feeling of indescribable pain. The screen goes dark. There is static electricity for a longer time, then you barely hear a male voice.

 

“Cyno?”

 

That is the one and only memory I have of my past. I have watched this memory countless times. Pinpointed each lick of flame. Paused at every frame. I surmise that it must have been the one who destroyed my universe. I can hear a voice at the end as well. It is male. I cannot pause at the frame of the eyes for long. I’m not sure why, as I do not feel fear. I suppose my body still remembers. 

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This is all I can access for now. It may not be much, but any evidence is good evidence. 

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I have stated before that I do not feel any emotion and that I have lost memories of my past. That is not fully correct. Although I do not feel any emotion, it is also true that I seem to have a goal I wish to work towards: finding out my past and putting an end to this destruction. I take solace in this fact. It is what differentiates me from machine.

 

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